For much of my life, I was a dysfunctional flake with little follow through capability. I overcame that through a lot of hard work, and adding structure and routine into my life. I function well and am quite comfortable in such an environment. As vital as they are, I want more out of life, I want love. I want a kindler, gentler, warmer, and more affectionate life.
I never wanted to be a bachelor, but that is how life turned out. I am determined to find a woman, my true love. I find dating difficult and confusing. I hate rejection and being dumped. I sure wish there was an alternative to it. But as far as I know there is not an other option, I simply have to suck it up and stick with it, like it or not. If I give up, I will just be lonely and I don’t want that. So I will just carry on.
I want to dedicate this year to friendship and relationships. I hope it will be so.